I didn't call you 'father' to your face
I cursed your name, I cried and cursed all night
I couldn't change what I had done, but how I wished,
I never would have seen you, never known

You never were a father to your daughter
I doubt you can recall my mother's name!
Her eyes were blue, like mine, and like your sister's,
The deep blue of a sea she never saw
I never can forget my mother's eyes
The fire, as she prayed for your return
Just another girl, another Shadow...
But in this Shadow, you left me behind

I look into my mirror and I see
A shadow of your face falls over mine
My hair falls like your hair, I have your smile
Like a ghost I see your face in mine

I cannot help but curse your name each night
And when I wake, my pillow's wet with tears
The tears I never were allowed to shed,
The tears I saved and sharpened into knives
Knives to pierce his heart and make him suffer,
If ever I found out my father's name
And yet, that's something that I cannot do
I cannot kill you, cannot even try

I can't avenge my name, my mother's death
I cannot even hate you, as I should
For each time I think I do, you turn around
And I see myself in the shadow of your smile

How could I hate you when we share a past?
How could I hate someone of my own blood?
I could just as well hate my future children
Because they'll share your blood, some'll have your smile
I can't respect you, but I cannot hate you
All I can do is love you, though I shouldn't
All I can do is swear to be a better parent
To love my children and - to try to call you 'father'